It's 2017 and my alarm had just gone off. The buzzing sound of the phone vibrating on the nightstand was finally starting to take its effect and I was slowly waking up. What had been a gentle humming sound was now a full-blown alarm. The sunlight was finally asserting itself over the darkness and the slit of my eyes had opened just enough to find its target. As I stared down my phone and I tried to zero in on the shrinking snooze button, an unfamiliar feeling of uncertainty came over me. What was routinely a swift and thoughtless motion, had somehow become a question. Should I get out of bed or hit the snooze button?
That morning was unlike other mornings where I would magically hit the snooze and stay asleep at the same time. A honed skill that would make even Sleeping Beauty jealous, it granted me the ability to squeeze every minute of sleep out of the morning. After a momentary debate, my finger reached its target and hit the snooze. I immediately dozed off back to sleep. However, a few minutes later, I woke up feeling guilty.
I had an unsettling feeling - like the one where you eat a sandwich only to realize you made it with expired bread. I knew if I had just put a little more effort, I wouldn't have to wait to see if I would start feeling bad. In my case, the feeling bad was the guilt of letting myself down. Why couldn't I get out of bed? That's when it hit like a line drive to the pitcher's head. I was deep inside of a dreaded place - I was in a BAD RUT. My life had become dreadfully predictable. Every day was the same routine. I would wake up, hit the snooze, wake up again, go to work, come home, go sleep. Then I would do it all again the next day. I was on autopilot with a destination to nowhere.
How could I be in a rut? I had a great job, a beautiful wife, and two wonderful kids. So why was I feeling like my life was slipping through my fingers? The more I wanted to hold onto my feeling of purpose, the more it felt like it was clutching onto a ball of slime. How could I overcome this feeling?
At the time, I did not know this, but that feeling would start a long, but rewarding journey. Over the next few weeks, I threw myself into self-help books like Godzilla goes after high-rise buildings. I was trying to devour as many books as I could. I was determined to get out of my rut.
Over the next five years, I went on a mission to learn more about self-improvement. I bought more books and courses. However, it hasn't been an easy ride. I've had up and down moments where I've lost focus and had to start all over again. There have been times where I've sat there hating myself for procrastinating and not making enough progress on my major goals.
However, the one thing I have never done is give up. This page is the proof of life, that even when distractions kidnap your focus, you can still come back. All you have to do is just keep swimming. The waves may come, but they will not deter you. You know you will eventually get to the other side. It's always been my goal to have a website that helps others, The best part is you are here reading this now, a witness to what is possible. Man, that's an incredible feeling!
So what have I learned while on this journey so far? Well, I have learned that change is not easy. Years of bad habits and negative thoughts cannot be overcome in a few months. It takes time, patience, and dedication to get what you want out of life. Consistency is more important than passion. It's better to take small steps than no steps at all. I've learned that being grateful is more rewarding and to stop and enjoy the blessings already in my life. And the most important thing, I've learned that you can never be defeated as long as you keep getting up and trying again and again.
It is my hope that you will join me on this journey, that we become brothers and sisters in the faith that our goals will be reached. However, I can't make you take that first step, you have to want to change, to get to the other side. Let's put our faith in God and let the Universe manifest what our minds can only dream.
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